Crazy/Beautiful

4 fun.

Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Editor
2. JCrew sales extraodinaire
3. Aquarium/Pet shop bitch
4. The best damn JamMan Entertainment DJ ever!

Four movies I've watched more than once:
1. Garden State
2. Con Air
3. The Illusionist
4. The 'Burbs

Four Places I have lived:
1. New London, Connecticut
2. Hickville-podunk Danbury, NH
3. Ptown
4. Berklee dorm, Boston

Four T.V. Shows that I watch:
1. Heroes
2. Nip/Tuck
3. The Office
4. Family Guy

Four places I have been:
1. Florida
2. California
3. Nova Scotia
4. Bend over and i'll show ya!

Four favorite foods
1. Fetuccini Alfredo
2. Teriyaki Steak
3. Lobster...combine w/ #2 = surf 'n' turf
4. Cheesecake w/ strawberries

Four Places I would like to visit:
1. Paris!
2. Tuscany!
3. Okinawa
4. A Carribean island (preferably one with pirates)(right on, Liv)

Four things you really didn't know about me:
1. I watch the same movie every night while i fall asleep

2. I flashed a female cop and was almost arrested

3. My first kiss was behind a dumpster! (eric shanley, 5th grade- high class, baby!)

4. I tuck in my 3 stuffed animals for bed every night

Day #2 at the gym w/ Liv. I made a New Year's resolution to be better. To do the things I say I want to do.

To be healthier & eat less crap
To spend less $ on food at work & make my own lunch/dinner
To save more money
To not be so angry all the time
To be better in relationships than in the past
To be more available to my friends when they need me
To oversee James & make sure he freaking gets Liv a ring before my mom kills him
To spend more time by myself
To stop doing things for other people because I feel bad

Well, at least I'm working on #1. I forgot how much i LOVE the gym. I was so athletic growing up. After cheerleading in college I joined The Clock and it was all down hill from there. I'm gonna fix it, damn it. Size 40 D boobs, be damned!! 36 C cup, here I come!

I convinced Liv to join with me, and I'm soo thankful she did. Much more fun being humiliated in ballet / boxing class w/ a friend! :)

2007 WORLD SERIES CHAMPIONS, BABY!!! Sooo proud to be a Bostonian! It's a proud day for Red Sox Nation!!!!




*I turn 25 today! Yay 1/4 century! At least my car insurance will go down! Last night was interesting. Went out on the town all costumed up w/ a motley crew of work/high school/college friends. It was stressful, but i'm glad i got to see everyone at once. Jen W., Marissa & Joe saved my night.

It's a sad time for a bday w/ Mike S. gone, but i think I'm handling it well considering the circumstances. Marissa has just totally saved me this past week (thanks, wife!) & my office has really pulled together to support me w/ whatever I need. But going in to work just isn't the same anymore. It's cold and sad and full of happy memories that are painful to remember.

oh well. Up early to work at 7am tomorrow! Ewwwwwww. I'm de-damn-termined to get a new license tomorrow! Well, my old one expires so i don't really have a choice! :) I don't wanna be a true masshole! sadface!

But hey, someone's got me smiling again, so there's something to be said for that. :)

night world!

Yesterday morning my coworker, my fabulous Macgyver buddy who brightened every day, died from the pneumonia he's been battling for weeks.

No more:

-Recalling our favorite Macgyver episodes & "macygvering things" at work
-Fun discussions about Heroes, The Office, or The View
-listening to Supertramp
-Clown doll photos hidden under things to scare me when i least expect it
-Taaaadauuuuuuuuuuuing
-Pointless sibling-like fights
-Seeing the number 23 everywhere
-the list goes on and on...

I hope losing one father, one best friend, and now mike, will get me some sort of reprieve from losing loved ones for the next 60 years or so. One can hope.

Not looking forward to work tomorrow. Gotta go find & put on my brave face.

Things i've done lately:

- Bought a super sweet halloween costume
- Vastly expanded my music collection
- Watched Josh Beckett whomp the Indians
- Got a "promotion" of sorts (well, that's what BW calls it)
- Learned how to throw a spiral & play nose tackle! (thanks, OB!)
- Got a full body massage
- Got attacked by a crazy NYC bug who left red welts on my leg!
- Ate vietnamese food for the first time
- Played in a Zen garden
- Had a naughty dream about Marissa...purrrrrrrrrr.
- Reconnected with old friends
- Learned to play Golf on the playstation! I even made my own character. Same eyebrows & everything!
- Written a few thousand emails to Liv


Thing's I'm doing soon:

- Watching The Exorcist for the first time (on halloween obviously)
- Turning 25 (gasp!)
- Picking apples
- Visiting mom & Baleine on Saturday
- Getting a Mass. license! so sad...
- Romping around Boston for my bday w/ a very motley crew of costumed drunken sots
-

I got so city girl on you
I get so sad that
Sad gets to be
So scared that all my feelings
They up and leave me
I got so city girl on you
I go so crazy I
Don't know what to do
Ooh, ooh
I look so alone
I get obvious
I look so hard
I look obvious
I work so much
I miss the sun shine away
I sleep so little
Watch the stars fade into day
I get so city girl on you
I go so crazy I
Don't know what to do
Ooh, ooh

I got uncertain from this
I'll be perfect from now on
But all my promises
They're out the window once you're gone
You pack your bags
You say I love you but I cannot stay
So I started smoking
Thought the signals
Would scare your wolves away
I got so city girl on you

Can only respond to the following with three words...no more, no less.
1. Where is your cell phone?: in the charger

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?: was pretty awesome

3. Your hair?: curly, thick, afro-ish

4. Where is your father?: watching from above

6. Your favorite thing to do?: sing and sleep

7. Your dream last night?: you shouldn't ask

8. Your favorite drink?: mucho rum daquiri

9. Your dream car?: 1969 Dodge Charger

10. The room you're in?: hot, loud, bedroom

12. Your fears?: trapped, clowns, alone

14. Who did you hang out with last night?: Joe & night shifters

15. What you're not good at?: pull-ups, push-ups, decisions

16. Muffins?: eaten at work

17. One of your wish list items?: life works out

18. Where did you grow up?: Po-dunk Danbury, NH

19. The last thing you did?: stayed up late

20. What are you wearing?: shorts, tanktop, bracelets

No 21 and 22? Hmmm.

23. Your computer?: driving me nuts

24. Your life: 1:30-10. every.night

25. Your mood?: I NEED COFFEE

26. Missing?: Banjo, mom, dog

27. What are you thinking about right now?: should get dressed

28. Your car?: PIECE. OF.SHIT

29. Your work?: Quarterly earnings suck

30. Your summer?: 40. Hours. Weeks.

31. Your relationship status?: didn't work out

32. Your favorite color(s): Bostonian black, baby

33. When is the last time you laughed?: At Joe's face

34. Last time you cried?: saturday night, methinks

35. School?: oh, The Clock

36. Farts?: Pete smith aplenty

37. Body hair?: Razors always win

38. Cereal?: life. the cereal.

39. Children?: long time away.

40. Your neighbors?: nice. inconsiderate. attractive.

I need to find someone to sublet (for 3mo) or rent my beautiful apt on June 1st. Any takers? Know anyone? Know a friend of a friend of a friend? If i can't find anyone I have to pay 3k to finish out my lease, PLUS my new apt. rent. YEAH, suck.

Yeah....... doing embarrassing things is only awesome if you can be in the moment, and then hide from it afterwards if it doesn't work out. The short of the story? Work is gonna be amazing today....*insert sarcasm here*

I'm sorry to everyone who reads my LJ hoping for some witty quip or anecdote- for some foul word play that many will understand and will elude most others. For my lack of displaying life's frustrations all over the internet, and telling the masses my true feelings about things. To be honest, i don't much care for the insignificant details of everyone's lives, so i don't want to display mine to the world because perhaps they are dually insignificant. I have a best friend to whine to- others don't need the burden of it. Once you get up in here *taps head*, there's no going back, baby.

It is true, my many months of pathetic journaling came about due to almost getting fired for expressing via LJ that i hated my job. (screw you Laconia Citizen for looking at my LJ anyway!) Since then i believe i've lost my taste for it. If i were to read something unflattering about myself in a 'buddy's' LJ, I might be quite upset- so why not spare others the same fate?

Also, methinks life is just boring right now. Go to work, go home, sleep. Work, home, sleep. Hrm. Do we see a pattern?

I do love my current job and its web-stalking, comic book reading, sports trivia asking, over dramatic bitchy pregnant, employees- (you know who you are). However, work encompasses most of my time, and our office has few secrets that aren't passed around via email anyway. For anyone NOT part of the BW staff, my life isn't that interesting, i promise you- (short of drunken nights at the bar w/ coworkers that makes the following day awkward and fun) and if you're my friend you know exactly what i think of you 99% of the time anyway. I don't much care if you like it or not...

So Hilton, Marissa- welcome to my LJ- if you could call it that.

so anyway- c'est tout. J'espere que tu as un bon nuit tout le monde. Touts les chose sont tres magnifique, vraiment. Mais, je te manque mon petit ami- ou, mon vieux petit ami. J'espere tu es bien, amour. Je t'aime toujours. Je te verrais Dimanche.

A Bientot!

Can I just tell you that i love my boyfriend! After hearing about recent events, drama of others in the group- it just makes me appreciate Banjo so much more. He'll never purposefully hurt me, make excuses, be controlling, or ever try and inhibit who i really am. He just allows me to be myself, and loves me for it. And that's all anyone could ever ask for.

You know, it's funny how once you're taken you suddenly become interesting.Banjo has been around forever, pining over his friends, being cute and funny and wonderful- and no one ever noticed. Or, they noticed but he was always 'too good of a friend'. Now people are coming out of the woodwork for his attention. Funny how that is- (funny to me and him anyway). Maybe being 'taken' gives you a sense of confidence that makes people more attractive- or perhaps people are so self conscious that they need someone else to test the waters first. Either way I consider myself so lucky that no one had snatched him up when I came along. He's just perfect- and girls are dumb.